My name is Alicia, and I am 27. I got my transplant at age 26. I was active the list for only about 2 weeks before I got 'the call'. It was very traumatic. I had no idea how long of a process it would be to recover and find myself again. As I start to more physically heal, and become stronger, i find that I am having pretty intense flashbacks of moments before the transplant, during the transplant and post transplant. I am a very emotional woman. I have been playing the violin for 23 years. You can hear me here ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEb0ZWVknCI ) .
Months before the transplant i was VERY skinny and was constantly criticized. People thought I was on drugs... When I was in graduate school studying Violin my violin teacher called my mother and accused my mother of lying to herself and saying that I was a drug addict and FORCED me to take a drug test. Which I passed !!!! The teacher never even said sorry. It has been tough, I am always fighting a stereotype. My Violin teacher at that time had known me for 13 years, and it was horrible to go through what horrific things she said to me and my mother.
I am naturally a petite girl. I am 5'4 and before I started going into liver failure I was about 117. When I went into the transplant I was 92 pounds. I then had a complication in the first month and had a blockage in my biliary tube and got down to 89 pounds. It made me cry when I would weigh myself. It was terrible and so uncomfortable for my bones and body. I have bad bones naturally and bad bone density and osteoporosis.
I met my husband in 2013. He is from New Zealand. We got married the next month , but could only do a quick ceremony since we were more concerned about him staying in the country with me. It was a beautiful court ceremony. But I got my dress for 30$ at Macys and it was very impromptu. I loved it though. We decided in 2016 to have a ceremony that was big so that he family and friends from NZ could meet my family. :) It was literally 2 months before my transplant. May 15, 2016. My tx was July 13. I remember how sick I felt but at the same time how happy I was. I was so skinny it was very hard to not feel self conscious and know that THAT was what everyone was thinking. I might be insecure on it. who knows.
.my wedding was even written about in a blog ! see here ----> https://winecountryweddings.com/coastal-jewel-tone-wedding-alicia-jeremy/
I find that I am having flashbacks constantly where these intense memories just hit me so quickly and i become emotionally overwhelmed. HAS anyone gone through this?? Also if anyone is in their 20's i would love to chat with you ! I don't know anyone my age going through this.
Thanks for reading.