I'm getting to my all my one year mark. I am at 10 months as of a couple days ago. Since the weather has changed all the foliage in my area is making me have intense flashbacks of my surgery and the months before and how sick I actually felt. I got married two months before my transplant. I looked really ill. It really hurts because at the time I was oblivious that one could and would get better. So its very hard for me to cope with the flahsbacks? Any one have any helpful hints to combat or aid them?