Dear Tx members,
I know the myriad of emotions and concerns that can come rushing in when faced with rejection or illness, hopefully most will never experience more than a “bump” in the road in life with a Tx. A wise recipient once schooled me as he faced his uncertain future, stating “In the absence of facts, we invent our own hell,” And so it is with me, whenever a test result or mild illness invades my life. I do not need a constant reminder about what a precious gift life is.
Allow me to offer a point to consider. I faced my mortality and have made my peace with God and said “goodbye” to my family so often, they do not believe nor share in my anxiety when I feel ill. I have become callous to the event of my demise myself, fully resigned to accept my fate. At age 55, I faced with a waning kidney Tx, bringing all too many thoughts to comprehend. I had to return to hemodialysis to await my fate. The were many issues calling me to “sit back and let go,” like having lost a limb over a decade earlier (another bump I thought was the end) and so many more health issues. Though I have an autistic adult son, whom I credit with my focus to survive through all my health issues, the truth is I just loved being alive. When offered a kidney from an “@ risk” donor, I selfishly jumped at the chance, a decision I will never regret.
I pray that you will not need to face such a question, know that the world is so much better with you in it and you are needed, perhaps more than you know! I hope that if you are faced with this issue and are in need/or offered a second Tx, you will opt to accept, if for no other reason, that you enjoy life as I do and want to see what the next chapter holds.